So another Christmas has come and gone and yet this one didn’t even feel like Christmas. I still can’t believe it happened because it really doesn’t feel like it. For the first time ever it was completely lackluster. December 25th this year was a great Eagles game and a good dinner. There was no waking up happy it was Christmas. It was only waking up worrying about which jersey I should wear for the Eagles game.

There was no fun opening presents. Even after almost 25 years, people still somehow don’t realize not to buy me stuff before checking with me first. So I got a whole bunch of stuff I didn’t want and some of which can’t even be returned which makes it even more depressing. Opening up gifts is really no fun when you have to fake liking stuff so you don’t hurt feelings. It’s like a bad dream that you can’t wait up from. So now I just have stuff taking up space.

And then there was the Eagles game which I waited for all day like it was the 2nd coming of Christ. That was great. However it didn’t end until just about dinner time and most of Christmas was over. So I ate till I was sick and went to bed so that I could wake up for work the next day.

3 days later and I’m finally thinking about what I actually got and it’s just like… blah. I guess I can look at it like there are a lot of kids that get nothing, however I can’t do that. That would make me sane. I have to look it like people completely wasted hard earned money on me, money that I could have spent much wiser, but there’s nothing I can do about it. That is why the only thing I asked for this Christmas was money, so that I could put it towards my guitar… the only thing that I really want and am still going to buy in a few weeks, just without that extra money. I think if the Eagles would have lost, I’d need medicine for depression right about now. Jeez I need a drink.

And no, I’m certainly not talking about the Rocky glove. That makes me feel bad but only because I don’t feel worthy of such a gift. Not because it’s not completely awesome.

I’m currently watching: Borneo’s Pygmy Elephants